Date of last post – 31st May! Oopsy – this blog posting malarkey hasn’t been a priority of late, but as I was sat pondering over recent events, it occurred to me that now was the perfect opportunity to update you all on what’s been going on.
To say we have been busy recently is a huge understatement. It has been a couple of months of firsts for Lylah, with lots going on including a very big family event – more to follow on that!
Being a working mum means that I am used to being apart from Lylah for a few days every week, but I still get to go home and put her to bed, and have some precious moments before she enters into her nighttime slumber.
So, three days away for my sister’s hen weekend back in June really didn’t worry me. In fact, as awful as it may sound, I was really really looking forward to the break. Jugglehood is extremely demanding, and as any mum, let alone working mum, knows, your time alone is precious, so even though I knew I would miss my baby, I looked upon the trip as a chance to unwind, have a drink and enjoy myself.
Sat on the the Eurostar on the way to Disneyland Paris, someone in the party asked me if I was missing Lylah yet. And then it hit me. My stomach churned and flipped, I felt sick, and I began to well up. Before I knew it I was practically sobbing into my Prosecco. From then on, I couldn’t even think about Lylah without crying. It was then I realised…even though we are desperate for a break, in need of a glass of wine and a dance with the girls, and for some time alone to recharge, any time without your offspring is like being temporarily detached from something. I felt Lylah’s absence the whole weekend. I missed her face, her voice, her crying, her whinging, and her giggling and laughing. I missed her clinging on to me and rubbing my chin, pulling my hair and giving me kisses. To go to bed at night and not have her there to say “night night” to felt so unreal.
Don’t get me wrong, I had a fabulous weekend, and I have to admit that the break did me the world of good. But it goes without saying that I missed my daughter and husband a huge amount – they are my life. I would rather be with them than anywhere else in the world, and that’s how I know i am the happiest when we are at home together, pottering about the house and garden, just being silly and having fun.
So that was mine and Lylah’s first weekend apart, and it was safe to say that she coped with it better than I did!
Another first was Lylah’s moment in the spotlight as a Flower Girl for her Aunty Kay Kay at Kayleigh and Adam’s wedding on Saturday. It was the proudest moment of my life. Not only was I overjoyed for my sister and her now husband, but it felt complete with my little family by my side. Chris, Lylah and I were all in the Wedding party, and I was so emotional about the whole thing! We had a fantastic day, and apart from a few thunder storms, Lylah having a tantrum about getting into the limousine and a little power failure, the day ran smoothly, and most importantly, was filled with love and happiness.
Lylah was brilliant all day, and looked like a princess in her dress; the perfect little maiden for my stunning little sister in her perfect gown. She ate lots of sweets, boogied on the chequered dance floor and stayed up late, and went down like a dream for the babysitter while mummy and daddy drank a little more and enjoyed the live band!
I am so proud of my daughter, and also for my husband and I, and in the same breath, for all the mummies and daddies out there, who work tirelessly through the first few, long hard months of sleepless nights, teething, juggling work and parenting. We are getting there, and moments like we enjoyed on Saturday make everything worthwhile.
Now for our next family adventure, a few days on holiday in Portugal. I’m sure that will make for an interesting next post!